The Open House parties are over. Almost every box is unpacked. Most of the photos are hung, though not all. This morning in an effort to express my heart I picked up a book by John O’Donohue called To Bless the Space Between Us. I ‘happened’ to open to “For Retirement.”
This is where your life has arrived, After all the years of effort and toil; Look back with graciousness and thanks On all your great and quiet achievements. You stand on the shore of new invitation To open your life to what is left undone; Let your heart enjoy a different rhythm When drawn to the wonder of other horizons. Have the courage for a new approach to time; Allow it to slow until you find freedom To draw alongside the mystery you hold And befriend your own beauty of soul. Now is the time to enjoy your heart's desire, To live the dreams you've waited for, To awaken the depths beyond your work And enter into your infinite source. -John O'Donohue
I have wanted for years and years to try to express my relationship with the Father through Christ and the Holy Spirit. Many times I almost gave up the notion of being a writer. And then the Spirit would kindle that fire in me once again, and I would begin again.
For this reason I remind you to rekindle the gift of God that is within you2 Timothy 1:6a NRSV
So here I am living in a community of mostly retirees. What is to pull me away from this calling? Well, almost everything of the world pulls me away. I need to be adamant about protecting the time I have set aside to write this blog. Sometimes I journal during my morning time of devotions, but even that can be disrupted by my own distractions.
O’Donohue wrote “Now is the time to enjoy your heart’s desire.” Oh, but will I? My courage still falters at age 70 and then 2 Timothy 1: 7 arrives:
For God did not give us a spirit of cowardice, but rather a spirit of power and of love and of self-discipline.2 Timothy 1:7 NRSV
When I read the Bible Knowledge Commentary about this verse I was stunned: “
“But such timidity (deilias, lit., “cowardice,” used only here in the NT) has no place in God’s service. Instead God gives a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline. These three virtues, each supplied by the Holy Spirit, should characterize Timothy.”
“Cowardice has no place in God’s service.” Come, Lion of Judah, infuse me with Your fearlessness. I will attempt to use the month of September to further explain what I mean by all of this. It is no easy thing to express divine interactions in words. Those interactions are almost immediately diminished in the effort. Yet the Father has given us the gift of speech and understanding. I will attempt to glorify the Trinity with my writing. “I will, with God’s help.” Lord, help me shun the things of earth and yield to Your call.